I've been crying (literally) since yesterday...i don't know what's happening to me. All of a sudden after taking some photographs of my surrounding neighbourhood, i just could not hold back any longer and burst into tears. Yup, you read right...i was teary-eyed in front of my housemates and they even needed to console me. You guys must be wondering why i cried right? Well, to be honest, i really really really miss Newcastle...especially my cosy and memory-filled bedroom where i've been sleeping throughout all these while i'm here. Gosh, how fast time flies by...i know this is kinda contradicting with my previous posts whereby i'm so eager to return to my beloved country. That was then...but now, i am in a serious depression mode. I guess i took things for granted and i regretted that i did not appreciate this place as much as i should be doing. Could you actually believe that I took like nearly 50 pictures of my flat alone...from my room, to the bathroom, toilet, kitchen, my housemates room and not forgetting the storeroom too. I am really gonna miss my flat and my room very very much. Just when i thought i am FINALLY getting used to the environment here in UK, i have to return to the original environment of the place where i belong to. After being surrounded by white people for such a long time, i will definitely take some time getting used to the environment and lifestyle back in Malaysia.
I was actually so happy that i could finally go back to Malaysia and then all of a sudden i'm being strucked by this emotional feeling. Could someone please explain this matter to me? Why am i feeling extremely sad to leave this place? I know i could probably return to Newcastle again in the future but then i don't think i will be able to stay in my current flat and especially my room anymore...that's a horrible feeling. I know some of you will say that life goes on and etc...but to really understand me, one must actually feel what i'm feeling right now. Usually when i am in a solemn mood, listening to my favourite songs will help to cheer me up. But now, i don't even have the mood to listen to any songs at all...all i keep doing is to look out of my bedroom window and think non-stop about my life in UK. It's like a total flashback of memories one after another...and the more i think, the more emotional i will be. Oh well, let me end here...i wanna continue crying...
P.S. Let me list down 10 things i will miss most in UK:-
1) The flat i am currently staying at (including my bedroom)
2) The amount of eye-candies (a paradise i shall said)
3) My housemates and my friends from different parts of the world
4) Some of my lecturers, especially Ms. Carrie McCullock (my ASK class lecturer)
5) The university 24 hours computer area where i frequently visit
5) The chinese restaurant in Chinatown called 'Ting Ting' (i HEART the chef's cooking)
6) The nightlife here in Newcastle (i MISS clubbing in UK)
7) Speaking in a Geordie (North England) accent so that the locals will understand what i am trying to say
8) Northumberland Street (similar to Oxford Street in London) and Morrisons supermarket (where i always do my grocery shopping)
9) Learning to be more independent by cooking for myself, washing the dirty plates and cutleries after dinner, doing my laundry, vacuuming my bedroom floor, clearing the mess and et cetera
10) Staring out of my bedroom window to look at people and whenever i need inspiration
I AM SO GONNA MISS THIS PLACE!!!
KIM HAUS PENANG
8 years ago
